Naranasan mo na bang ma-inlove??

Isa sa mga tanong na hanggang ngayon ay hindi ko masagot..

Paano nga ba ma-inlove??
Kailan mo masasabi na inlove ka??

Bata pa lang ako, Elementary days, close na kami ni Reysa, naging bestfriend ko siya noong grade 5 pa ako hanggang grade 6.
Kulitan doon, harutan, tawanan, kopyahan, sabihan ng secrets at kung anu-ano pa. Nakakatuwa kasi kahit babae sya napaka-close niya sakin. Sa sobrang close niya sa akin, napagkakamalan kaming mag bf/gf. Nakakatuwa kung iisipin kasi bata pa lang ganyan na agad ang tukso sa amin. Porket ba close, kami na? Sabi ko sa sarili ko.
Grade 6. Hindi na kami naging mag-kaklase ni Reysa, nalipat siya ng ibang section. Ako naman same section parin.
Kahit na magkaiba kami ng section, hindi nawala ang closeness namin ni Reysa. Sabay kami kumain, umuwi at gumawa ng assignments sa library. Masaya.

Walang nagbago. Wala nga ba talagang nagbago???..

Before kami grumaduate sa Grade 6, nagkita kami ni Reysa, nagpatulong siya gumawa ng last project nila sa Science. Syempre, bilang bestfriend pupunta ako syempre. Pinuntahan ko siya.
Close ako sa parents ni Reysa, feel at home ako kapag nandoon ako sa kanila. Natutuwa sa akin 'yung mom niya kasi ang cute-cute ko daw bagay daw kami ni Reysa. Natatawa lang ako kasi malay ko ba kung nagbibiro lang si tita o hindi.
Pumasok na kami sa kwarto ni Reysa, busy, gupit dito, sulat dito, ayos dito. Halos lahat ata ng ginagawa pag gumawa ng project e nagawa namin.
Hanggang sa napagod kami. Nagpahinga. Kwentuhan at kulitan. Biglang tumahimik.

"Noel, san ka magha-high school?"
"Dito lang din sa Novaliches? Bakit?"
"Ahhh.. buti ka pa.."

Natahimik si Reysa pagkatapos nya sabihin iyon.

"Bakit? Anong problema? Antok ka na?"
"Ahh hindi, napagod lang siguro ako sa ginawa natin."

Oo nga naman, nakakapagod nga naman gumawa ng Science project. Ang laki-laki pa ng project. Pero parang may mali.

"Bakit? Saan mo pala balak mag-aral?"

Napatingin sa akin si Reysa. Umiiyak.

"Hindi ko pa alam. Lilipat daw kami sabi ni mommy."

Humanga ako sa mga oras na yun kay Reysa. Siguro dahil siya lang ang nakita kong batang babae na umiyak na hindi maingay.
Parang may matanda akong kasama that time. Umiiyak siya pero walang ingay. Pero kahit ganun, mararamdaman mo sa pag-iyak niyang yun ang labis na kalungkutan.

"Ahh.. ganun ba?"

Sandaling katahimikan ang bumalot sa aming dalawa. Katahimikan na hindi namin namalayan. Tiningnan ulit ako ni Reysa.

"Mamimiss mo ba ako, Noel?"
"Ikaw lang ang bestfriend ko, Reysa. Iniisip ko nga na magkakasama pa tayo sa high sch..."

Biglang nagsalita si Reysa.

"Inlove ako sayo, Noel."

Tameme. Tulala. Natahimik. Yan ang naging reaksyon ko nang bigla niyang sinabi yun.

"Reysa naman. Wag ka namang nagjo-joke diyan! Sumbong kita kay tita e!"

Sabi ko na parang bata. Takot. Pero hindi ko maintindihan ang sarili ko noong mga oras na yun. Hindi ko alam kung matutuwa ba ako sa sinabi niya o maaasar dahil sinabi pa niya yun kung kailan sinabi rin niyang lilipat na sila.

"Sige, Noel, uwi ka na, baka gabihin ka pa sa inyo. Sorry ah! Wag mo na lang isipin yung sinabi ko."

Tameme parin ako. Walang masabi. Hindi ko alam kung dapat ko ba siyang kausapin o hindi.

"Ma! Uwi na si Noel!"
"Sige po tita, Reysa, salamat sa cake."
"Thank you din sa pagtulong sa akin sa project best!"
"Wala yun."

After graduation. Wala na sila Reysa. Lumipat na sila. Pinuntahan ko ang isa sa mga classmate at close friend din ni Reysa.
Tinanong ko kung saan sila lumipat.

"Sabi sa akin ni Reysa, sa cavite daw sila lilipat e."
"Ahh ganun ba?"
"Sabi nya. may binigay pala si Reysa na letter, basahin mo daw. Binigyan din niya ako e."
"Ahh talaga?"
"Oo, sandali lang ah!"
"Ok sige."

Sulat? Bakit hindi niya sinabi sa akin na lilipat na sila kaagad after graduation?! Akala ko ba bestfriend kami?!
Simula nung sinabi sa akin ni Reysa na inlove siya sa akin, nawala ang kulitan at harutan namin. Nag-iba ang ihip ng hangin. May pader na biglang humarang sa aming dalawa. Magkatabi lang kami ng classroom noon pero pag lumalabas na ako o pag-uwian na, hindi na kami mapang-abot.

"O eto Noel. Keroppi sayo!"
"Ahh salamat, haha keroppi!"

Pumunta ako ng library. Binasa ang sulat ni Reysa.


Noel,

Sorry dahil hindi na kita pinapansin after natin gumawa ng project.
Nahiya na kasi ako sa'yo e.
Akala ko madali lang sabihin na inlove ako sa'yo.
salamat sa pag-intindi sa akin.
Sa mga kulitan at pagshare mo sa akin ng mga secrets mo.
Salamat kasi naging bestfriend tayo.
Galingan mo parin sa school ah!
Sana magkita parin tayo pag tanda natin.
Baka that time, hindi na ako mahiya sayo.
Salamat talaga bestfriend!
Da best ka!


Nakakabinging katahimikan. Hindi ko alam kung dahil ba sa nasa library ako or pinili kong magpakulong sa katahimikan.
Noong araw ding yun, bigla kong nasabi sa sarili ko,

"Ganito pala ang naramdaman ni Reysa."

My Heart, My Mind, and My Soul

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I felt so blue as if my world is turning gray
My heart is craving for something I didn’t wish
The desire of my heart is hard to achieve
As though I have no choice but to feel the emptiness.

I wonder where my loyalty had gone to
I am not sure if it went to my heart, my mind, nor my soul
The betrayal of my heart to my mind
The deepest agony, and anguish that I felt for myself.

My heart is shaking, trembling in anxiety
I don’t know, I really don’t know
But I am expected to know
I should know…

My heart, my mind, my conscience
They shout for different reason
They shout for different happiness
And to top of it they mean contradictory.

A Poem Written For Me

Narcissistic from a point of view
Outstanding friendship anew
Exquisite and profound happiness
Love has mend its weariness.

Music from a fruitful start
Attuned to my beating heart
Nirvana to Venus and Mars
Amazed by your eyes like the stars
Ascend me to heaven by your arms
Your loving embrace keeps me warm.

Why practice English?

I'm not sure if it's appropriate to write something about this topic but I can't help myself wondering and thinking because
my best friend is blabbering his mouth and that makes him very annoying all because he talks to me in English!

Why are we supposed to practice good English Communications Skills?
Aren't we supposed to practice more of our language better than English or those vernacular languages? Right?
Many of our countrymen had shed blood and tears to fight for freedom, for our motherland and preserve our very own language, yet here we are, wasting their efforts by indulging ourselves using this foreign language?
What's up with that?!
(Nosebleed na ako dito! Haha!)

Ever since my academic years, I'm really fond of English. Mostly, in writing, but when it comes to speaking, good luck with that!
I'm not really a bad speaker myself, you know. In fact, some of my mentors adored me when I start to talk in English.
OK, so I know how to use this so called "English", but why practice 'it' again?

Any Business Ideas?

Being a professional, I mean, in a company that has foreign clients, a good English communication skill is a must to be able to communicate well. That is of course, if you want to promote your product, convince your clients to patronize your products or simply just to talk with them, then you have to use English.
I also noticed, that nowadays, If you want to land in a good company, one of their requirement is either excellent or good English communication skill.
But of course, once you start working, you're free to use Filipino by either whispering, one on one talk, or group conference, well, if they use to talk in Filipino, too, otherwise, you will be punished or worse, suspended if you will talk in Filipino in an "English Only Policy" workplace.

But why? Simple. NOT FOLLOWING INSTRUCTION!!!

Due to global progress, global competitions, so to speak, if you want a wide array of market, you have to use English.
Using English is also their way to communicate with us, well, maybe, because if you'll talk in 'Filipino', they'll think that you're talking behind their backs, or you're insulting them. So, If you want to be with them, use their language.
Another good thing about English is that it boost your self-confidence like, I feel sometimes that I'm one of the boss! Haha!
Well, I can say that we, Filipinos, are a good speaker of the English Language. We sure do have this Filipino Accent but, we speak English clear and Understandable. Proud to be Pinoy ata to! Haha! Good thing this blog site is not an "English Only Policy" site! Haha!

Dream. Believe. Survive, English!

You want to be an Actor? an Actress? Perhaps, a Dancer? Or a Singer? Are you a local artist who wants to be known internationally like Ms. Lea Salonga or Charice Pempengco? Yes! English is also a must!
In the Entertainment world, using English is very common! Well, if you'll just use Filipino, how will you supposed to get the attention of those Hollywood people? Being one of them is our dream right? Well, most of us! Haha!
And the fact that most of the songs right now is written in English?! Well, the popular ones, Of course.
How will you interpret a song if you didn't understand it? How will you dance to the music if you don't know the beat of it??? As an actor? How will you able to give justice to your role if you don't understand what is written in an English script?
In that case, I can say that English is not just a language, it's also a talent! Of course, If you want to consider yourself a full-package celebrity in the Entertainment world.

Study Hard! Study English?

Yes! Our modern teachers (All the teachers.. I guess, except the Filipino Teachers! Haha!) nowadays use English as their teaching tool to their students. But sad to know that some of the students refuses to feed their minds with this language.
Some of them says that they're not that confident in speaking the language, and others says that their friends used to bully them or laugh at them when they start to express their selves in English so they prefer not to speak of it.
According to my English teacher, a research in our country shows that out of the 10 girls, 4 of them speaks excellent English, 2 of them were good, and the other 4 girls preferred using "Taglish" or their own preferred languages.
Out of the 10 boys, 2 has an Excellent English communication skills, 2 were Good and the other 6 uses "Taglish" or they rather prefer to speak in their own other languages.
Rumor has it also that from 2 excellent English communicating boys are most likely gays, the 2 good English speaking boys has the tendencies of being gay, and the remaining were most likely ended up becoming bystanders or the out-of-school youths.

Sad realization is that we are now getting far behind the other Asian countries who are seriously trying to learn English and risking their youth in the 3rd world country, the Philippines. Although we are one of the English speaking countries, if we don't practice expressing ourselves in English, how will they know (How are we supposed to brag to the other countries)that,
We are Good Speakers of the English Language?...

Studying English is not actually that hard! We don't need to exert effort of learning the English alphabets because obviously both Filipino and English alphabets are the same except for one. NG is technically N and G combined, right?
Since our toddler years, English is already a subject being taught to us personally by our parents then by our teachers. Yet, even as we get older, we find it hard to communicate in English fluently. Maybe we're too shy or maybe we feel that we weren't suited using English in expressing ourselves.

According to Wikipedia, our country, Philippines, ranked 5th as the World's highest populations of English speakers. 58 percent of our total population use English as a second language. Isn't that a good news?! Despite being so laid back in technology and being used by Koreans as gateway of learning English, we are still not far beyond comprehension. There might still be hope for us!

Expressing yourself in English will not only just boost your confidence but it'll also be your way to communicate to others and be able to understand them too. So start expressing yourself in English and dare to be different! Be an Englisher!

(Englisher?? What the f*ck am I saying?! Wahahahahahaha!)


Viewed freely, the English language is the accretion and growth of every dialect, race, and range of time, and is both the

free and compacted composition of all. — Walt Whitman

Gusto mo ng Advice sa Love? Etong Sa'yo!

“Love is Blind…”

Pinakasikat na kasabihan tungkol sa pag ibig..

Hhhmmmm… nakakabulag ba talaga ang Love??..

Nakakabwisit kasi my times na natatakot na ako magkaroon ng relationship!..

(Dahil din sa mga kwento sakin ng mga close friends ko! Haha!)

Well, marami kasi akong close friends na nagkukwento about sa relationships nila with their bf/gf..

There are times pa nga na sakin na sila humihingi ng tulong or advice kung ano daw ba ang dapat nilang gawin..

Aba! Hingan ba daw ako ng advice!

Well, since close friends ko sila eh binibigyan ko sila ng advice na sa tingin ko naman eh sasakto dun sa situation nila..

Madalas nilang hinihinging advice sakin ehh ano ba daw gagawin nila kapag my third party ng involve sa relationship nila..

Ito ang mga scenarios:

♥ Si bf/gf daw kasi nahuli nyang my katext na iba o may naka-save sa inbox niya na sweet quotes tapos ang sweet-sweet daw at tungkol pa sa love!

♥ May times daw na itong si bf/gf ehh iba ng pinapakitang attitude yung tipong kala daw nila ibang tao na!

Ito naman ang sinasagot ko sa kanila:

►► Tanga ka ba?! Alam mo na palang my third party ng involve eh pinapatulan mo parin hanggang ngayon!

Magbreak na kayo!

Naglolokohan na lang kaya kayo!

Wahahahahahaha!

Ang Bitter ko no?!

May mga dahilan naman kasi ako:

Syempre, sa tingin ko kung mahal ka talaga ng taong yun, hindi papasok si third party..

Tama? Di ba?

Trust is the no.1 factor na dapat mangingibabaw sa isang relationship..

Trust as in Tiwala!

Tiwala.. na ikaw lang at wala ng iba saka ikaw mismo dapat nararamdaman mo yun na may tiwala sayo si bf/gf at ikaw rin mismo tiwala sa bf/gf mong yun…

Kasi isa ring factor kung bakit pumapasok si third party eh walang tiwala sayo si bf/gf..

Or gusto iparamdam sayo ni bf/gf na di na nagwowork ang relationship nyo..

Tama di ba?..

May katext na ngang iba eh!

Saka kung sa tingin mo wala ng "Spark" na sinasabi nila sa relationship nyo o sa tingin mo di na nagwowork ng maganda ang relationship nyo..

Better think twice na!

At dapat siguro magpa-eye transplant ka na rin para di ka na mabulag sa taong yun!

Wahahaha!

Di ba, May bago ng kasabihan about sa love ngayon?

“Love is not blind, it sees but it doesn’t mind..”

Ayun naman pala eh!

Ayon na rin sa kasabihang yun, kung tulad ka rin ng mga friend kong nasa ganito ring scenario..

Ang dapat mong gawin ay MATAUHAN!..

Sa totoo lang, di ko rin naman sila masisisi..

Mahal nila ang taong yun at Love parin ang nagbibigay sa kanila ng urge to Love that person and still they’re hoping for that moment na magiging maayos din ang lahat..

Sa ngayon di ko pa talaga alam what Love really means..

Well, sa estado ng buhay ko ngayon, dapat maging single muna talaga ako..

Saka naniniwala kasi ako sa power ng DESTINY..

Na may nakatadhana talagang isang special person sa bawat isa satin...

Well, I will just wait for that moment!

For the meantime, I must enjoy my life as a SINGLE..

Enjoy life at its best, right?!

That’s It!^^,

P.S.: Friend lang po kami nung nasa picture! Wahahaha (^^p)

Crush vs. Love (An excerpt from my blog site dati) React kayo! Haha!

Define CRUSH and LOVE:

CRUSH is the instantaneous attraction for someone.

A CRUSH is when you think about someone all the time.

LOVE is when you go out with your CRUSH.

LOVE is when you have a real relationship and go through the ups and downs together.

LOVE is a strong bond while CRUSHES come and go.

- Yahoo! Answers

Crush at Love, may pagkakaiba nga ba talaga sila? Karamihan kasi sa atin ngayon, 'di na alam ang pagkakaiba ng Crush at Love. Nakakatuwa ‘yung mga taong nilalagyan ng malisya ang na caught-on-the-act nilang kaibigan sa ibang tao or sa kakilala nila .
Ito ang madalas na sinasabi nila,
“Uuuuuyyy..!”
“Huli!”
“Relasyon…”
“Uuuuuyyyy…. Crush!”
Pero kelan ba masasabi na CRUSH ang nararamdaman mo para sa isang tao? Isa-isahin natin.
According sa Yahoo! Answers:

CRUSH is the instantaneous attraction for someone.
Instantaneous attraction o biglaang pagkagusto. Ito ata ‘yung sinasabi nilang “Love at First Sight”. ‘Yung tipong unang tingin mo pa lang or unang meet n’yo pa lang eh para kang nasa heaven. Weird ‘yung feeling. Masaya na ‘di mapakali. Overwhelmed nung makita mo siya at gusto mo pa siyang makita ulit after n’yo magkita. Madalas na kantiyaw sa mga taong nasa ganitong stage ay, “Parang tanga lang”. Kasi nga naman, parang tanga lang talaga sila. Alam n’yo kung bakit? Dahil sa kanilang mga kinikilos. Ang mga taong nasa ganitong situation kadalasan ay:

For the guys:

Nagpapacute - Gagawa’t-gagawa sila ng paraan para maging gwaping sila sa crush nila. Unang sign eh ang paghawak sa kanilang ilong, conscious baka daw kasi oily! Wa points! Hahahaha! Seriously speaking, one way lang talaga namin ‘yun ng pagpapacute. Kasi may kasamang eye contact pa ‘yun. At syempre, killer smile after. Nakz! Haha!

Nagiging clumsy – Yep! Nagiging clumsy kami ‘pag nakita namin ‘yung crush namin. ‘Yung tipong may mababangga kami kahit maluwag ang daanan (kasi nga naman ‘yung mata namin nasa taong ‘yun). Nakakabangga o nakakabasag nang kung anu-anong bagay o ‘di kaya bigla na lang madadapa. Ingat ‘tol! Haha!

At parang baliw – Actually, baliw talaga! ‘Pag wala na ‘yung crush namin, that doesn’t mean na ‘di na rin namin siya maiisip. Ang tawag dun? Daydreaming. Haha! Ito ‘yung scenario na bigla na lang kami tatawa o ngingiti ng walang dahilan, tulala sa isang tabi (yeah!), at magugulat ‘pag ginulat ng katabi! Haha! At alam mo sasabihin nila sa’yo? “Baliw!” Haha!

For the Girls:

Malamang ‘di ko alam! Pero may napansin lang ako, ewan ko kung totoo. React na lang kayo mga girls ah! Haha!

Nag-aayos ng buhok – Ito ang napansin ko sa lahat ng girls na sa tingin ko eh nasa Crush stage. Maglalabas sila ng suklay at ayun, magsusuklay! 'Yung iba naman, fingers lang ang katapat! Haha! ‘Yung ilalagay ‘yung buhok nila sa ilalim ng tenga nila ng nakayuko ang ulo habang nakatingin sa crush nila. Hindi sila mag-ismile, madalas pa nga mukhang mataray o normal lang. “Makuha ka sa tingin!”, ‘yan ang motto nila.

Dagdagan n’yo na lang girls ah! Thanks!

Mabalik tayo, so, I therefore conclude, na ‘di pala dapat “Love at first sight”, it’s “Crush at first sight”.

A CRUSH is when you think about someone all the time.
Laging iniisip. Pinakamahirap na stage. Dito, magiging concern ka na pati sa mga iniisip niya. Pati na rin kung ano ginagawa niya. Ito ‘yung situation na iniisip mo kung ano na ginagawa niya? Iniisip ka kaya niya? Saan siya ngayon? At kung anu-ano pa. Paranoid! At the end of the day, maiisip mo na lang, “Sino ba ako para isipin niya?”. Ang Saklap! Okz lang yan! Haha!

CRUSHES come and go.
‘Yan! Stage of Moving On. Ito ‘yung situation na nalaman mong ‘di ka type ng crush mo or sa kasamaang-palad, my bf/gf na siya. Mahirap tanggapin at first, Oo naman! Sabi nga sa isang kanta, “So bad, it hurts inside..”, huhuhuhu! Pero anong sabi? Crushes come and go. Magkakacrush ka ulit! Haha! Malay mo, this time, both of you has the same feeling for each other! At dito na papasok si Love. (Timing! Haha!)

Paano naman masasabi na nasa stage ka na ng Love? According ulit sa Yahoo! Answers:

LOVE is when you go out with your CRUSH. Of course, if both of you do share the same feelings, o crush n’yo ang isa’t-isa, possible mo nang I-date siya. Lumabas kayo. Hanapin n’yo ang compatibilities n’yo sa labas. Kilalanin n’yo ang isa’t-isa. Ipakita mo kung gaano mo sya kamahal sa ibang tao (‘Wag naman super duper PDA ah! ‘Yung tama lang) . Holding hands while walking should do. O akbayan mo siya. Simple as that. Maraming nang kikiligin sa inyong dalawa.

Take note! ‘Wag maging kuripot kung talagang mahal mo siya. After all, It’s a give and take relationship.

LOVE is when you have a real relationship and go through the ups and downs together.
Masaklap na part. Sa stage na ito, dito na kayo mag-aaway. ‘Di naman maiiwasan ‘yan sa lahat ng relationship. There are always ups and downs. Even though small things, pag-aawayan n’yo. Ang kailangan lang sa stage na ito, if you really love each other ay UNDERSTANDING and TRUSTING EACH OTHER. Kailangan isa sa inyo ang magpakumbaba or mag-give way. At the end of the day, mare-realize din ng isa ang pagkakamali niya. At syempre, tiwala sa isa’t-isa. Tiwala na walang iwanan. Na both of you will overcome the ups and downs of life together no matter what.

LOVE is a strong bond.
Bonding. Very important when it comes to love. Ito kasi ‘yung stage na makikilala n’yo na talaga ang isa’t-isa. Ang pinakamagandang bonding para sa akin eh ang pag-uusap n’yo habang naglalakad, or kahit nakatambay lang sa bahay. Kwentuhan, kulitan, harutan, etc. Real communication makes the bonding strong. In order to have that, you must be true to yourself and to your partner as well.

According sa Yahoo! Answers, Crush and Love has different meanings, but both of them share one common feeling. And that's Happiness.

“There is only one happiness in life, to love and be loved…”

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